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Writing
Deep Pilot is the name for the state I'm in when I follow my questions; every piece there ends in a question rather than an answer. Spontanmod is what I write without a plan — whatever catches me, whatever came out on its own.
Open questions
On selfhood, time, fate and reality.
From Vibration to Meaning
Explaining why a melody moves me is much harder than noticing that it did.
What Do We Call "I"?
When you call me Ayberk, which part of me are you talking to? My legs? My head? Which part is it?
Do Animals Have a Concept of God?
I went to the source behind the headline about worship-like behaviour in chimpanzees: only one of its thirty-four references touches the religious side.
Is Life a Dream?
If films and novels borrow from lives, how much sense does it make to say that someone's life is "like a film"?
Liner notes
How a song got written, why one was taken down, how a melody was found.
Can a Song Have a Second Edition?
A book gets a second edition. What about a song?
Is a Melody You Had to Force Worth More?
When all the energy goes into getting a melody born, is there any energy left to get it heard?
The Song Ended. How Much Time Passed?
A song lasts three minutes. The place it takes you does not last three minutes.
A Forum, a Song, and a Decision I Didn't Make
I thought about having someone post about my song on a Turkish discussion site. I drafted the message, then didn't send it.
A Life Story: "Spontane"
I don't know where to start, but since one has to start somewhere, the urge to write without looking back wins.
The Power of Silence in Music
The part of a song I work on hardest is usually the part where nothing is playing.
Loose pages
Unplanned, about nothing in particular, and gone if they aren't written that day.
One Island, Two Stories: 1900+ Days in Cyprus
We couldn't fully break from the Türkiye we left behind, and we couldn't live in Cyprus as though it were only a stop along the way.
Statistical Balance in Turkish Football and a 2026 Projection
A title projection I wrote in January 2026 — and a postscript, written after the season ended, on why the prediction failed.